Stilling learning...

Still learning how to love well. Yes, I am. No lie I fall short on this one quiet often. All my good intentions, my hopes, the longings of my heart get lost somewhere between my heart, my head and my mouth. What spills out of my mouth is so not the words of encouragement i imagine myself saying all day long at work. I step in the door and the current "must deal with right now" explodes in my face and all my good intentions seem to go out the window with my energy to make a difference in my home at that time. I try to speak truth, go to the truth of the situation to find the answers for what ever the current issues are. Believing that the truth is a foundation for dealing with life's difficulties. In the moment am I speaking words that give life and resolution? Or am I tearing down, hurting the ones i love? Yes the truth can hurt... Not to mention fear. Fear of the truth.  Fear of disappointment, fear of lose on some level I would say. Lose of a relationship. All these things come to mind in a moment. Words have power to heal, or to hurt, to move a person forward or stop them in their tracks. Yet I know perfect love cast out fear ..."There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with judgement. The one who fears is not made perfect love." 1 John 4:18...At the end of the day I want to have loved well. I still learning what that looks like.